Emotional Hurt

You don't know how I could possible feel.
So don't act like you do.
Just because, I smile may not mean
its real.
I have so many deep strong,
feelings that are bottled up.

Have you ever sat an thought.
Think about how I may feel.
Think about how I could be hurting,
on the inside.
I think not, so don't say I know what
your going truth.

You could have no possible idea,
what I go through.
I try to help so many people.
But do you think they help me.
People think there so far ahead of me,
but there not.
I'm ahead of some of them.

Yeah I may have pain,
or hurting.
And they may not have
the problems I have.
But who cares, because I'm
dealing with it by myself.
Isn't know one helping me.

You know how they say,
you can count on your family.
Well what family did they come from.
I can't count on anyone really.
Yeah some may help, but they don't
know what I need help with.
I think family causes headaches.

Your probably thinking she hates, her family.
No I don't hate them, they just don't understand me.
Thinking oh there's nothing,
wrong with her well there is.
Shoot they don't even notice when I am sad/mad.
Shows they cant point out a fake smile.

So before you try understanding me.
Take a step into my shoes.
And you to will paint a smile,
on your face.

written 12-26-2005