Nuthing can take this back

by lexcondevill   Dec 29, 2005


Nothing can talk back the scares we have and the pain we have and the pain that will be with us for the rest of our lives noting can take back the ink in my body or the scars u have our the tears I cry every time I think of you and every time I hear or see something that reminds me of you nothing can take that back ... nothing can take way the fear I have the fear of always being alone and when I start to cry I cant stop b/c all the pain comes back the pain in my wrists and in my hands all the scars seem to bleed again when Iâ??m crying................ they say that it will fade away yeah it dose but it always comes back and I hearts that much more with time every thing reminds me or you b/c we were so close and so pure and so in love that nothing will be able to replace that b/c now it feels like you died and thereâ??s nothing I can do and when I go to that one spot I cant help but cry I cant help but to leave that one house with out tears in my eyes it hunts me every day know I cant see you or talk to you or hold you and the cold settles in and I want to disappear I can never take those things back but if I could I would give anything to do so I went to court b/c I wanted to protect you and the hole way back I was crying b/c I cocouldn't?t turn you in , to try to protect you Iâ??m not the same, I probably never will be all I want to do is move away and start a new life but I cant ill always be pulled to the spots that remind me most about you and my heart still feels so empty that it so hard to get threw the day sometime and I still dream about the farm and your house and every date we ever shared flashes and I want to die b/c I donâ??t really know were we went why we could have been free to work out our own problems why they locked me away and threw away the key whey they haled to so high up in that tower............... the only time I feel some what close to you is when Iâ??m hugging this kid this beautiful little kid why is it that then is the only time I feel warmth back in my heart and keeps me safe for that day I still have dreams about you things you do things you want to do things that just tear me apart I just want to travel back true time so I could change what happened to still be embraced in your arms to still feel warmth and feel alive I just wish I could hold you in my arms again but I guess the only way thatâ??s ever going to happen is in my dreams for now and for every tell my death takes that apart and ends my tears and all the cold lonely nights when Iâ??m crying to my self but I gees this is on of the only times ill ever be able to talk to you again and to that I say good bye and my love will always be with you watching over you and protecting you from harm good bye my angle my one and only princess.

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