Goodbye self harm

I don't think you realise how serious this is,
Every night I'm dieing,
Because it's you I miss,
I don't think I can continue this lying.

I tell you about the real me,
And everything becomes distant,
I try to open your eyes so you can see,
But you never seem to listen.

I've had enough of this,
I write you a poem and it upsets you,
But now it's gone too far- that's it,
None of this am I going to do.

No more crying waiting for you to come,
Because your perfect in my eyes,
You always help me along,
Even when I want to cry.

So I'm sorry if I ever upset you,
But I'm going to stop this,
I promise it's the only promise I'll do,
But now you're life is going to be a bliss.

I'm turning over a new leaf,
Even though I'm not quite ready,
I have to do this for me,
I'm going to start it nice and steady.

So goodbye old life,
Hello to the new,
I must say goodbye to the knife,
And say hello to you...