Teenage girl takes her own life?

I sit here
on new years eve
alone
all alone
no family here
no Friends here either
i sit with a razor blade in my hand
wondering how long it will take
for me to die
i can cut deep and then
keep carving
then take a knife and hit the vain
it would end all of my pain
here i go cutting myself look
the blood is dripping to the floor
i stop cutting and wonder
will people care
be happy
be sad
wonder why
nope they will just
read in the paper
"teenage girl,takes her own life" they will skim it and be like
oh how sad that girl went to my school or what a nice girl
why did she do it
i am not that nice girl
that girl is not me
i was that girl and no one
ever took time to see that
depression was
taking over my body
ruining the nice girl
now i am here
contemplating suicide
my mind races
life or death
over and over again