Blade

I stay up lat
i cry
feel like iam going tp die
but why
how come these things
happen to me
why not anyone else just me
i go to my bed
lay my stomach on the floor
pull out a box
then open it
pull out a box from inside
then find the blade
the blade that cures my pain
each and everytime
the only difference is
one day i will need that blade
for more than just a cut
to cure my pain