Falling
To the billowing waters below
Plunging to the eager claws of diabolical depths
Captured by shadows of memories
Held in by hate
Guarded by jealously
Fueled by the living origin through my veins
But most of all imprisoned by fear
Fear of rejection
Fear of death
Fear of fear
I can only look upwards
To where I used to be
But when my sun went down
It let the night in
Hate to love
And love to hate
I want to obliterate the chains around me
But yet I’ll never try
Pleading for help
But fending off rescuers
Trapped
But one crusader won’t be stopped
The nagging thoughts in my mind
Wispy faces of laughing people
People I know
I need to see them again
With a surge of determination
I struggle
Powered by one thought
One wish
I see my friends
They hand me a towel
My family helps me up
And I realize
This is what it means
When someone really loves you
And you love them back
The black inside me
Encased and locked
But it will be up to me
If I ever use the key again
