I'm not falling apart...

So tomorrow's the big day,
The day to get a fresh start,
To throw the past away,
It's time to drift apart.

But I'm no way near glad,
With this move,
It makes me sad,
Thinking about what a stupid thing this is to do.

I can't tell a single sole,
That im scared,
I'll just shiver here in the cold,
I wish someone cared.

Well at least this blade does,
It kills me slowly yet deeply,
This is what happens when you don't feel loved,
Inside yourself, you feel creepy.

This blade will never leave my side,
This blade is a true friend,
This blade helps me when I want to hide,
Eventually this blade will help my life end.

I'm scared people won't like me,
They'll pretend they do,
Because they don't want to be mean,
I wish they could be as understanding as you.

So tomorrow's my big day,
Maybe it won't be a fresh start,
I can't throw my past away,
But I must pretend I'm not falling apart...