Its not easy being me

I wake up in the morning-i have to wake myself
mums gone to work already and my step dad smacks me starts to yell
.:sigh:. its not easy being me

here i am at school as i see the guy i love holding hands and laughing with her
it hurts so much to know i had him but them i let him go
.:sigh:. its not esay being me

here i am in classes not a clue what i should be doing look around the class and everyone else is working the teacher gives me an earful but i jus shrug and turn away see my ex best freind sitting there\\\"you think your so clever your just a stupid little girl\\\" the cut cut deep as he used to care before
.:sigh:.its not easy being me

home again just through the door he starts yelling as he grabs my arm and flings me me into the table and i go crashing to the floor
i sit up dizzily i hit my head quite hard i blink to clear my vision and see him standing there cold and hard
.:sigh:. its not esay being me

another beating later and i stagger to my room i just about make it as the tears begin to fall i gracb my knife from the bottom draw and lean against the wall i put it too my wrist
.:sigh:. its not easy being me

i push the blade in deeper until my strenght begins to fade and as i slump to the floor i smile my first true smile
because i dont have to be me anymore

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