Ill never tell, you cant know

I hide it so well its impossible to see
whenever im hurting and the emo in me
i listen to your problems and try to help out
they stick in my mind make my head scream and shout
everyone counts on my to make everything better
everyone sends me their suicide letters
im the shoulder to cry on when nobody cares
my doors always open for my friends to share
i never feel used or betrayed in any way
i love to listen when you have something you need to say
but the knowledge of knowing the reason your down
makes me fake a smile so you cant see me frown
one of these days im going to lose it
and i wont care who im going to have to put through it
that day will come and its going to be hard
one day youll see my vanished scars
this life is my job, my assignment, my hell
im scared, im emo, but ill never tell