What I'll Never Find

My heart is numb to all you feel...
The wounds you left will never heal...
I lay restless on this moonlit night...
My tears come out with the ink I write...
Clouded judgment, failure looming overhead...
Times like these, I think I'm better dead...
All my hopes lead me to believe...
Everything is right, but they only deceive...
I know inside my heart, I care about you...
It's tearing us apart, I don't know what to do...
I wander through my life, deaf and blind...
Knowing what I want, is what I'll never find...