I'm used to many kinds of pains,
Cutting, depression, my family life has no gains,
But what you did I cannot ignore,
The pain you've dealt is more then sore.
I told you all my secrets and feelings,
Guess that didn't stop you're secret dealings,
I feel hurt, angry, and betrayed most of all,
For your time of joy has started my fall.
When you knew the truth-yet continued your plot,
Why did you not think you would have been caught?
It figures I'd be the first to have known,
And with that spread a gap that will never be re-sewn.
You KNEW I liked him, even agreed I had a chance,
Never before had I felt that feeling of romance,
Of course realistically you wanted him as well,
Now you have him, any sane person could tell.
The way he looks at you with you returning his gaze,
It makes sleeping so hard for me these days,
Every time I close my eyes it's you two I see,
Outside I am happy for you while inside I wish he held me.
It makes me so sick that I cannot even eat,
This jealousy is a habit I can't learn to beat,
You may never know how I feel till it ends,
Because believe it or not... I need you guys as friends.
