Every night I cry myself to sleep...

I just can't take it any longer,
I always said I'd commit suicide when I wouldn't have the guts,
Right now I'm sitting here with a ponder,
Because this time I most deffinately have the guts.

What is there to live for?
I used to live for you,
But that was when you liked me before,
I regret telling you everything with all I do.

Everythings going downhill,
All I need is a little help,
I think you have the skills,
To help me be myself.

I can smile like I mean it,
My smiles are just buried behind my tears,
I can smile and be faking it,
It's what I've done for all these years.

I stand in the crowd,
And pretend I fit in,
I smile as if I'm proud,
When im bleeding tears within.

No- ones notices me,
In the background I begin to fade,
My eyes begin to fill with tears,
I remember all the mistakes I've made.

Sealed tight in a cubicle I am locked,
That is where I can hide,
I try to figure out why I'm so lost,
And I try to figure out why I cry.

But I've run out of answers,
That is excluding one,
I don't think anyone would notice and bother,
If this was to be done.

So for once and for all,
I want to say goodbye,
You never catch me when I fall,
You never see the endless tears I cry...