My Own Insecurity

I tried
i failed

i carried on as best as i could,
i didn't even reach as far as i thought i would,

I'm scared
I'm lonely,
I'm shaking
so violently
i need help i will admit,
but it seems like I'm stuck in a bottomless pit,

I'm so scared.. to try again,
to fail again,
to let you down,

my sweet,
my love
my darling,
security is for all i ask,
to take off this brave mask,
i want to run to you
and let my guard down,
not having a clue,
just compassion, yet no sound,

the love you gave me helped me through,
in the darkness there i saw you,
you inspired me to carry on,
the hate and loneliness that i felt,
is now all gone,

the impact you have to wards me,
the love,
is so beautiful, but no one can see,
it'll be our deepest dark secret,
forever in my heart i have always kept.
Just Between you and Me