I did it again.
I promised I wouldn't.
But I did.
Then I threw it away.
Now even if I wanted to
I CAN'T do it again.
I feel so guilty.
Because I told her I'd quit.
And for a while I did.
But I felt so upset.
And it distracted me.
I feel lost again.
I don't know what to do again.
But more than anything
I don't want to hurt her again.
