Regret

Unknowingly, time has slowly gone by
But each day, I've lived meaninglessly
For I can no longer see that special guy
Whom my heart has been wishing to see

The feelings I now hold inside of me
Have become so strong I cannot control
I tried to forget, but instead remembered slowly
The person who once made my heart whole

I sit here with thoughts of him on my mind
And the familiar feelings I've learned to hide
Why is it I cannot leave him behind?
So I do not have to feel this pain inside

A sad song plays, repeating, never-ending
Bringing to me the memories I've held onto
Ones that have kept my heart from mending
Because they were the ones I could not subdue

Each day only seems to get harder and harder
As the loneliness and pain leaps above all
It appears I'm slipping away, farther and farther
Standing at the edge, I'm almost about to fall

All these feelings are slowly killing me
I have lost the strength to hold on
I found I'm not as strong as I thought I'd be
From the moment I realized he was gone

Since he left, my whole world became dim
Everything I see now are shades of gray
I've tried telling my heart to just forget him
But I've learned it does not work that way

I know I am the only one to blame
For I was the one who pushed him away
Now it hurts even when I hear his name
How did I let things become this way

Regret now haunts me every night and day
A shadow that follows me wherever I go
I can do nothing except wish, hope and pray
Because what happens next is beyond my control

I don't know if I'll be able to let him go
I guess I will just have to wait and see
Maybe one day my world will once again glow
And my imprisoned heart will finally be set free..