Years of life wasted

Eyes so heavy from all the tears
Life was ment to get better this year
Life in the dark, far to what i can see
Love is gone far away from me
Hate and regret fill my world
For what is left in me i hurl
I control weight
I cant control this hate
For my life is over
With only you to suffer
If I'm gone
Then will you be strong
I thought so
So i am to go
Goodbye