God why didn`t you take me too

Why didn`t I just die with you, it would have been easier than feeling this way. Your being gone has made me feel that there is no other love than you. You were my soul mate my one true love and nothing will ever be the same. Why didn`t you care more about yourself, me loving you was never enough. You just had to do things to hurt you and now I am left behind like everyone else that loved you. Why couldn`t you see that it didn`t just ruin you it ruined all of us that loved you. Now none of us will ever be the same we tried and tried to help you but no one could rescue you. God had to choose you because everyone loved and adored you now were left wondering what could we do. God why didn`t you take me too