Sick of being scared

If you keep emotion
Locked away inside
We wont see the pain
That you are trying to hide
You have learned a pain release
You have found self harm
The pains no longer on your face
But its written on your arm
For every tear youve ever shed
For everyone youve met
You have made a single cut
So you cant forget
There as a reminder
So when youre grey and old
You will say you did it
Just to prove you had control
You decorate your skin with hate
You want this over soon
Youre building a tolerance to the pain
Soon youll be immune
Numb and now unfeeling
You may as well be dead
Youre ruled by your dark mantra
Stuck into your head
Telling you to punish yourself
To take control of your life
You dont need friends anymore
As long as you have a knife
You dont want my sympathy
Youre too proud to cry
Youre stronger than youll ever know
To know that you cant die
You just want the adrenaline
Of knowing you came near
I may not understand you
But I love you, and im here
Youve already planned your funeral
And youve got a song prepared
Youre getting darker everyday
Im sick of being scared