Everything about me

My past is what haunts me
Days after day
Scared to move on with life
Afraid what people would say

I seclued myself
from people, life, and fun
Knowing I pretty much have nothing
I wish my life were done

Maybe there's a way
To end my life, so clear
Although I am afriad of pain
It would be nice to leave here

I have the knife in front of me
And it's my choice to die
But I just hate living
I hate hiding this smile with a lie