I Will Take This Blade

At night I stay up listening to those horrid fights.
Somebody would enter here, shut off all the lights.
Another night of torture, this pain is just to much.
Even though I thought I did, I just can't stand your touch.
You fooled me into believing everything you said.
Looking at these memories, wishing I was dead.
I won't have to wish for long though, no more pain to bear.
Thinking about what you did, wishing I weren't there.
After doing what you did, you'd just say 'Goodnight',
Sitting in my bed those nights, full of hard core fright.
I looked over at my small black box, full of all those pills.
The ones that you gave me, babies it will kill.
Underneath the pills though, I have kept my blade.
Stained with red and glistening, myself I have paid.
Paid with pain and suffering, to let out all these tears.
Soon I won't remember all of my worst fears.
I will be your fear though, in all of your dreams.
I will haunt them all the time, and They won't hear your screams.
I open the box, pour them out, to God my life I bade,
For to my wrist, without a sound,
I Will Take This Blade.