I'll always be here.

I'll never move on from this point in my life
I'll always self harm to take away the strife
I'll always cut deep into my skin, hoping to die
I'll keep on cutting, more and more I'll try

All the times I've tried to change what I've become
Looking back at the person I've changed from
Living life in pretending to be happy everyday
Yet every second wanting it all to go away

I'll always be here, never to move ahead
Not being able to leave the blade, is what I dread
I can't seem to go a day with out harming my skin
I can't seem to get over it, I just canâ??t win.

Depression sucked me in, and know it I can't beat
I always be here, until the end I do meet
Never to move forward to always go back
To never get my life back on the right track

This moment in time has become my reality,
No amount of help, could take me back to normality
I'm stuck here self harming, whatever the case
It will take me a lifetime to find my proper place

© Courtney L Steward