As i sit here, i wonder will i ever feel good enough? life is about making myself happy not anyone else right?
Then why am i sad when i constantly seem to fail my mother, nothing is ever good enough, there's always something i could be doing better.
why do i have to feel like I'm not good enough? My confidence is at such a low, why can't i see the things in me that other people see in me? is there someone at fault for this? Is it my ex? Is it me? Is it my mother?
I cry at least 3 times a month, is that healthy? I know i need to keep my head held high, i know the the path i need to take to succeed, i know exactly what i need to do, and i lie here awaiting the confidence and faith in myself to do it, to get where i want to be.
they say good things come to those that wait, but life is so short i don't have time to wait, I'm sick of waiting that doesn't seem to get me anywhere.
A very close friend once told me, faith is like a seed, starts off so small, then turns into a beautiful flower or plant, i guess things just take time, one day I'll open my eyes and I'll have more faith in myself than i ever have had. things comes when your least expecting it.
In the meantime i need to get out there, and help the seed grow. It can't grow on it's own. It needs nourishing.
