The pain is so deep that I'm not,
I'm not even feeling it anymore.
it's like an open door.
not ever being closed.
last night was bad.
yes, as i repeat the attempt.
over and over but just tears fall.
the pain ends up with a band aid.
on my leg but that doesn't help.
you broke my heart.
a person that promised wouldn't.
but understand it had to be done.
i guess we could be friends.
always till the end.
but it would not be the same.
my heart is smashed on the pavement.
once again and again after that.
the freaken memories are washing.
washing away but i just see them in my head.
damn it. it hurts so much.
i wish it wasn't all true.
i wish it was a nightmare.
punched me a thousand times.
i swear you hated me.
you wanted to kill me.
i guess you got your wish.
but it's not even a big kill.
i understand it more then before.
so tonight i end this in a OK manor.
that you do still like me.
that you still fallen for me.
but you had to go on.
you have to see what you had to do.
and you didn't want to bring me down.
bring me down with you.
and i know matter what.
i will always love you.
even if you hurt me so much.
i know it was for the better for now.
i want what is best for you.
who cares what i think.
even though you have killed half of me.
