Things will never change

I look for answers
But just cant find them
So the only way that I could deal
Is to pretend none of it is real

But it is real
And if people don\'t tell the truth
And others don\'t listen
Its never gonna change

I cant do this alone
I need help
But the people who could help me
Are turning away
When I need them the most

Why? Is it me?
Probably
But if they don\'t tell me
How am I supposed to know?
I\'m not a fuking mind reader

How did it get this far?
I shouldn\'t have ever trusted
I shouldn\'t have ever talked
Its just made things worse
Ive lost everything and more