Eternal darkness pt II

I lie awake at night
with a very sharp knife in hand
staring at the ceiling in pitch black
i ponder on what I'll do next.

Should i just end it all
with that question in my head
sitting in bed i glide the
knife through my wrists
in hope of sweet solitude.

I watch as the blood streams
the pain is a welcomed friend
Ive been waiting for a long time
for all my pain to end.

And as i fall back in bed
i rest my head
knowing death is near
i close my eyes.

Now I'm taking deep breaths
and I'm waiting for death,
to end all of my troubles
and all my darkest fears
and then.... eternal darkness.