Laying in bed staring at the ceiling, wishing I didn't have this feeling. Eyes are filled up with tears, trying to wash away my fears. Praying that it will go away, wishing everything was ok. Being left here alone, trying to make it on my own. With all these emotions surrounding me makes me feel closed in and not be free. I gave everything I had, but didnt know it would end up this bad. But I trust that it will go away, leave me alone, and never come back to stay. Cause when lies are told, and lives have been stole, nothing can stop it, it gets out of control. Nobody will listen, nobody will care, they only want their opinions out there. But they don't know the whole truth, they don't want to believe what we've got to say, they just talk about us and push our saying away. That proves they have a cold heart against some situations, they don't understand everything when you ruin their relations. Why can't they understand, why can't they see? Why do they take all thats happened and throw it back at me. You feel like you want to run from it all, but when you try, somewhere in between you trip and fall..thats when it drags you back in the hole....the hole filled with emotions, lies, guilt, and hate. You can't do nothing about it, all you can do is wait. Wait till this nightmare ends. But it hurts when someone you were truly close to, turns their back and betrays you. Why that person made that decision, I'll never know. But their showing a side of them thats never been showed. Maybe I'm being taught a lesson, or learning from my mistakes, that I'll regret every heart that I break. The friendships that I had have now been broken, gone away, and left unspoken. But out of this whole situation I have learned that I can never run and hide, and its not good to bury your emotions deep down inside, because sooner or later all you will do is break down and cry.
