Nobody hears me cry at night

Nobody hears me cry at night,
Nobody even knows,
The pain that I go through,
The depression I don't show.

She doesn't even think,
'bout anyone else but her,
Doesn't even ask me,
Doesn't even care.

I wish she would just die at night,
And leave us all alone,
Why would I care about the debts,
When she gnaws me to the bone?

She thinks she sees right through me,
And knows me tip to toe,
But she really doesn't know a thing,
Can't tell me friend from foe.

She's always shouting at me,
And making me feel stressed,
I've already got too much to eat.
That I've got to confess.

She thinks I'm always lying,
And I actually never do,
She thinks she'll get to know me,
But I can see right through.

She's only trying to mold me,
To something nice and new,
Not at all like my sister,
It really makes me puke.

She's always complaining,
Crying into my shoulder,
But now its getting to me,
There's so much weight on my shoulders.

There's this book that tells me,
I can manage any stress,
Play around and muck about,
And make myself quite thoughtless.

At first I quite agreed,
It read me like a book,
But then I saw it's not so true,
When I really had a look.

She once said that she'd kill herself,
And there was nothing I could do,
Sometimes I really hate her,
For what she puts me through.

She has a little tactic,
When I do something wrong,
She punishes me sourly,
And then sings a happy song,

When she gets real angry.
She punishes me no end,
I think she likes the torture,
The pain she likes to send.

Now every day I feel it,
The pressure is weighing down,
It really won't get off me,
I'm falling to the ground

Sometimes I feel as if I'm dead,
Don't want to feel the pain,
But theirs something there inside me,
Says ill always feel the same.