If I was afew years younger...Perhaps I wouldnt be scared.

Does anybody wonder why I'm scared,
Can they even realize I've been there?
Do they even know a hint of what I've gone through,
Maybe if I was a few years younger...
I'd still smile like nothing was wrong,
Like I didn't know what it felt like to be discarded,
Or to be called worthless and retarded,
I've been suffering through this life for so long,
Everyday feels like one of the biggest pains,
With everyone laughing and calling me names,
They all blame me for they're problems,
Ties my depression further into me with chains,
How long do I have to live through this humiliation?..
Suicide is to big of a temptation...
Everyone only misinterprets me..
If I was a little younger..
Maybe I wouldn't care,
Maybe I could have become stronger,
Then it wouldn't be such a wonder,
Why the cold truth keeps me petrified,
Why I'm so scared...
No one cared,
If at least one person truly did,
Then I could have lived through all of this pressure..
Perhaps..I wouldn't have crashed from my own despair.