My reason for life

Take me to the lands,
The lands where my yearnings were born,
All the truth lies in your hands,
But leave me alone to mourn,

I cant find my life's answer,
And I'm quickly running out of time,
Because I'm dying of his cancer,
Gods punishing me for my crime,

You are the reason i live,
But i cant tell you any of this,
Theres nothing i wouldn't give,
But i cant even give you a kiss,

I'm not allowed to tell you how i feel,
I can only tell you of my hate,
Only because I'm not living real,
But this is just part of my fate,

So it seems you'll never know,
Why i look at you that way,
But its because i love you so,
Maybe ill be able to tell you one day.