I\'m going to be me!

I promise myself that I will stop this thing
But I can't and my wrist always stings
Maybe I should just end it, then nothing I would fear
I'll just get away, I'll never have to come back here

Broken promises and useless rhymes
Telling you I'm stopping time after time
Depressions finally got one over on me
I'm under its control, and always I will be

I can never get over this, while I feel this way
Never being able to stop, what more can I say
I'm not going to tell you, what I do anymore
I'm just going to keep it to myself for sure

I'm going to be myself, pissed off or happy
It's the truth you'll get to see, even if I'm crappy
So don't hold your breath for smiles, tears is what you'll see
I'm sorry but I'm sick of pretending I'm going to be me