I Want To But I Can't

~I Want To But I Can't~

The silver tear slides down my face

I want to
I want to
I want to

I don't
I don't
I don't

There has to be another way
Besides putting marks in my skin

I'm sick of my thoughts
I'm disgusted with myself

I can help it
I can be strong
I can't do it anyway
I have told so many friends that I have stopped
I have to tell the truth because I am already a lie