Suicidal Thoughts

Suicidal thoughts are consuming every corner of my mind
and emotions are becoming cold and numb.
The pain is overwhelming and the thoughts are excruciating
To be free and to help anguish the pain of others
If it wasn't for 'love' this darkness would have
Never laid upon me
Love has damaged my soul and left me to die
I am nothing but a withered rose with thorns
So sharp that i cause my soul to bleed
As they try and fix me and show me some light
I refuse
Struck by my own thorns I'm left to suffer
As I slowly die in my own misery
I think about the life I could have led
A life filled with love and laugher,
Tears shed but theres no use
I witness the damage I have done to a growing rose
He's the one who has to die with me and causes this
Words shouldn't be used to blame
The finger should be pointed at me
I have destroyed the lives that have raised me
I have disgraced them
This is the only punishment I deserve
to die
Death is the easy way out but it'll make things better
I promise....