Kneel to you

Giving up was the hardest thing to do
But i said i would do it for you
Why did i cut and cover my skin with these sleeves
Why did i feel like there was no one around to hear me
I opened up and now i can talk free
I'm no longer scared to be me
Sing, shout and laugh... the things i have longed to do
To feel this happiness inside... just like you
But as i have controlled my life for so long
Popping pill, cutting and hurting everyone
Now i take the high road and forget about death
But i can't escape Ana not on this quest
I control it in so many ways... i have hated my life for so many days
So this smile not forced.. now.. upon this face
But the hunger is felt... not a disgrace
If i don't feel the hunger... then I'm not doing it right
For my final wish to be thin.... not give in this fight
You can escape many things but this i can not run
But i want to be thin... for me... not for anyone
These pro-Ana websites keep me strong
When i am feeling dangerous... and in the wrong
Nothing looks better than how thin feels
Just let Ana control... so Kneel
Forget the pills and those blades
I'd much rather be thin any one of these days