Tangled up dreams,
Tangled up life,
Living it through all of this strife
I hate how you've left me,
here all alone,
Brother of mine is only contactable by phone
My pillow stained with tears,
no one to protect me from my fears,
all these problems of mine
are so insignificant, i should be fine
I'm just not clever,
have no good qualities,
nothing making me special,
all these feelings my mind wrestles
Everyone around me so happy,
I smile with the rest,
Even when life puts me to the test
Suicide was my way out,
Slicing my skin with that blade,
Yet no one notices the pain I hold,
Confused by all the lies I've been told,
so i put on my face,
trying to erase,
the s**t i seem to embrace
Never been loved by anyone,
bodies messed up,
miss-used and abused;
by family and such,
lads hate what they see,
personality SUCKS,
no hope left for me
Scars on my arm,
Scars on my tummy,
left all alone with manic depressive mummy,
dad's such a D**k;
hate him so much
Alcoholic bastard who couldn't give a f**k,
messed up my whole life from the very beginning,
with his hands around her neck,
nightmares i had, such a repetition
counseling was great,
got rid of some pent up hate,
like hell did it,
I can never forgive that s**t,
but now it's OK,
really I'm fine,
I'll tell myself that everyday at every time
touch does nothing for me,
the tender touch of the boy I like,
doesn't make my inhibitions go, out of sight
i think I'm a freak,
i don't seem to feel,
my heart and bodies empty,
nothing is ever real
maybe i should end this,
nothing left to say,
this is just a part of me,
said in a simple way
