I really don't know why life works out the way it does
I wish I could go back to the way it used to be the way I was
I really don't know why I made that big mistake
I felt like my life I was ready to take
everyone made me seem like a hoe
when really they didn't even know
they didn't know how I felt that night
I really didn't want to do it so my self-pride I had to fight
what was going through my head I wish I could show?
how I feel inside I wish everyone could know
I wish they could know that’s not really me
if they knew maybe they'd understand, maybe they would see
to understand that the old me didn't care what people thought of me
the old me didn't care what others would see
but the new me is different and is taking my soul
I feel like in my heart I have a big black hole
why I did it I really wonder why
why did I feel like I needed to impress that guy?
I didn't because he means nothing to me now
I need to get the person taking me over out some how
this person is making me out to be something I’m not
I really wish I could take back that stupid thought
thought of being someone different was what I really wanted
now that I did that I'm going to be haunted
my past I going to haunt me for the rest of my life
the old me inside says stop as the new me picks up a knife
the old me says don't do it and the new me says what have you got to lose
the old me says everything and everyone but the new me says fine lets take a cruz
so I pick up my moms keys and walk out the door
as I say maybe I won't come back and I won't be on this earth no more
then I won't have to deal with anymore pain
this mistake I made is driving me to be insane
to understand fully you have to be me
but to tell you the truth it’s really not that easy
not easy to understand and know what I’ve been through
I wish that was something everyone could do
I’m really sorry to everyone who I’ve caused pain and that I’ve hurt
I try to tell people I’m sorry and they make me feel like dirt
I really shouldn't tell people that I’m sorry if they just put me down
I feel like I’m being made fun of like a clown
life is hard work and difficult to take
I really don’t know why I made that mistake
