Regret and Denial

If I did the right thing,
Why do feel so bad?
I was prompted to, and made sure,
This action would not make you mad.

But I feel like I betrayed you,
Swept aside all of my dreams,
Only to find that when it is all said and done,
I am just a pawn in anothers schemes.

I dont feel the way I should feel,
Or how you all believe I do,
My story is more complicated than that,
But no one will listen to what is true.

They are so caught up,
In all of the ignorance and lies,
And wielding them like swords have cut into me,
The stupidity of these fools will be my demise,

Alas, I have fallen to cupids shaft,
But it is not pointing me that way,
Instead it steers me toward the past,
To then end of a bright July day.

The most memorable moment,
That I have ever known
Was one when the world was still new,
Since then I have grown.

It happened in an instant,
The moment which I revere,
You asked a simple question,
Youre motives seemed sincere.

It has not left me yet,
This cherished memory,
I still hold on to it for dear life,
And keep it from being temporary.

I obey your best wishes,
Even if it kills me inside,
I dont really want to do this,
That is the sad truth I cannot hide.

You were my first choice,
And the absolute only one for me,
Even if the world thinks differently,
Only the truth can set me free.