Unspoken

I don't know how to say them
All these words to you
But you didn't even understand before
All of what I was trying to do....

How do you tell someone
The saddest word of them all?
The one that hurts and kills
The one words that makes you fall

Especially when it's permanent
When there's no turning back
You say it and it's done
No returning to the track

Should I give him a phone call?
Or send him a letter
Either way I have to tell him
I guess it really doesn't matter

Maybe I should send an email
He rarely checks it anyway
He won't be able so stop me
But he will find out one day

But how do you explain a past?
To a long lost friend
The one whom you once loved
Who was there with you to the end

I'm all covered up but I'm coming out
I can't hold it in anymore
The bloody scars will say enough
My simple secret, I usually ignore

And the bruises on my side
That was no accident
To be branded there...
Is where they were meant

How do I tell him
That I was harshly harassed
That it caused me to isolate
Believe me, it will leave him aghast

And how do I tell him
A permanent goodbye
That'll I'll never see him again
Cause I'm gonna die

It'll hurt him I know
And will probably leave him broken
Maybe it would be best
If I left those words unspoken