I Try

I try to act like everything's all right,
I try to hide my tears I cry,
Night after night...after night.
I try to act like seeing you, saying a word to you, would be the last thing on my list
I try to act like for these 48 hours you're the only thing I haven't missed.
I try to smile a smile that will brighten up the day,
I try to act like I'm not hurting, that everything's ok...
Only my pillow knows about the tears that my delicate eyes have spilled,
Only the sound of sad songs covers up the pain, unrevealed;
Only the shadow that covers my wounds knows
That I'm hiding so many things, that I'm trying so hard not to show.

I'm so weak when I thought that I was strong
I thought that you didn't really mean that much, until you strung me along
I never thought that you would just up and leave with one word,
I never knew that you would be the source of all my pain,
All of this hurt.
I thought that you were just another name to me,
I thought that you were just here to have fun, and set me free,
Instead you ended up being my death
Instead you end up being the kiss that I just can't forget.
Two months wasted, that's what you were
Two months jaded, it was all just a blur.

I always thought the day that you left,
That I'd enjoy being alone, that I'd just forget, but
It seems that no matter who I'm with or where I'm at
Nobody compares
I wish that I could just have fun, THIS ISN'T RIGHT
It's just not fair!
He wants to take me out on a date,
Another wants to hold me, but I make him wait.
I'm just dazed and lost,
If I would've known this would've been the end...I would've wished our paths never crossed.

I'll never let you see that I'm such a disaster
I'll never let you see me, from here on after,
You're the one who decided to say good-bye,
I told you I'd never come back, the day you made me cry.
It's over
I can't believe it, but it's over.