Wake up

I can't say what I wanna say,
To the people who want to hear it,
I cannot be the man you want,
Messing up is what causes me to fear it,
Thoughts of other women filling my head,
But your in there too,
Flying at the top,
Then the sky falls,
Your in nothing,
But your clear as day,
The others fade away,
Then I wake up and they are all I see,
Pictures of you leave my memory,
Its them all day long,
I cannot escape the thoughts,
Filling my mind,
Dreaming is the only relief,
That I can find,
COME TO ME NOW!
I need to see you more then ever,
I think its getting worse,
They are begging now,
I am resisting but I don't know how,
I love you and you know it,
I know I never get to show it,
My resistance is strong,
Its with you that I belong,
Then I wake up,
And its them again,
What am I to do,
I really wish I knew.