Inner Battle Lost

The day I dread is finally here
Valentine\'s day will soon be here
A day of red roses and great gifts to bear
A holiday in which I have no one to share
Love is spread all around the world
In many places
As boys and girls show smiles on their faces
Yet liquid falls from my eyes
And my heart becomes cold
I sit in darkness as my mind turns to mold
My valentine is out with another girl
Feeling like everyone else in the world

I once had faith that we were meant to be
But after a year I have finally come to see
He never loved me and he probably never will
So I clear my throat then pop a pill
I consume about 40 then find a sharp knife
Then slit my wrist as I think about life
The blood falls over me as I cry
Releasing my pain, wishing I\'d die
My spirit begins to leave me as the room spins
I close my eyes
Slowly sinking in his bed of Lies

~* I know this probably sucks, but it was written straight from my heart. It might not make very much sense to others, but it means a lot to me!*~