Gone Because Of Me

I wake up in the morning. I move to your side of the bed thinking you would wake and plant kisses on my forehead. I open my eyes at the bare sheets.

And I remember you're gone. Gone because of me.

I get out of bed to look in the mirror hoping to see the picture of you with your arms around me. But it's my reflection alone that I see.

Because you are gone. Gone because of me.

I take a shower with closed eyes and I feel a cool breeze. I open my swollen lids thinking its you coming to join me.

But you are gone. Gone because of me.

I tear out of the rain like shower and I wrap a towel around me. I look to your side of the bathroom thinking you would be beside me.

But I remember you are gone. Gone because of me.

I powder and dress my self then stumble to the abandoned bedroom and collapse to my feet. Imploring to God how can this be.

That you are gone. Gone because of me.

I lie on the floor tears burning in my eyes. Wishing your were here to soothe my cries. I lay there thinking that I am to blame. But it was only your cheating that put us to shame.

I was crying and thinking that it was my fault. You cheated on me without a second thought. Now I see why you are gone. You lay up with her leaving me alone.

I open my eyes and finally see that you are gone because of you and not gone because of me.