innocentcrybaby

About innocentcrybaby

Sometimes I feel that I am not good enough for myself.
That I want to be a different person, one with life's wealth.

I feed on music that calms my insecurities.
I hunger to be the girl inside me.

I often feel sorry for myself and burst into tears.
As I sit, thinking of my life's nightmares over the years.

My tears flow from bad memories and choices.
Ones that I made blamed by other people's voices.

I seek out to help others but can not help me.
I am steadily trying to figure out who I want to be.

I dream of being the perfect human.
But I know that's not a possible fulfillment.

I cry because I don't know who I am.
I cry because no one seeks to help me find out.

I fear that I may live a dreadful life.
But dreaming the way I do will pay that price.

I listen to "Bruised" by Jack's Mannequin.
But I really need a "Holiday from Real".

I listen to those things and wonder.
If I will ever be as striking as thunder.

I am misunderstood and a crybaby.
I wish a knight in shining armor would save me.

For that I feel as if I am a hazard to my reflection.
But should be thinking of my life as a blessing.

My insides feel like the perfect shade of "Dark Blue".
I look at my twin in the mirror and tell her "I don't want to be you."

But I am her and I have to face it.
Though I wish I had a replacement.

For this hideous feeling I share with my self.
For wanting to be a person with life's wealth.

For reading too many romance novels.
Wishing I were the characters and that would solve my problems.

But it is the zodiac's cancer in me.
I am what I am and what I see.

But I wish to be the girl inside me that I feel.
For the person that feels is pure and real.

Innocent Crybaby*

Profile of innocentcrybaby

  • Age : 18
  • Gender : Female
  • Country : USA, Texas
  • Joined : Feb 15, 2006
  • Last Visit : 14 years ago
  • Poems : 17
  • Comments : 45
  • Quotes : 12
  • Posts : 2
  • Awards :

Latest Poems By innocentcrybaby

  • You look at me innocently with the eyes of a lost...
    You whisper to me softly of how much of me you...

  • I dreamt of him again today. The same as every...
    to be continued...

  • The gift of life is finally being received by me.
    I'm learning all the wonders of its magnificently...

  • I feel so stupid, yet so relieved. I was too...
    From the day I met you , screwing me was all you...

  • Crying over lost dreams and time's pain;my tears...
    It's almost 3 a.m. and I'm still awake.Trembling...

Latest Quotes By innocentcrybaby

  • After two years and too many lost loves to count..the passion i have for you still aches and hurts as if it happened only moments ago...

    11 years ago
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  • As i sit here and listen to slow song and think of you my heart aches because i know you're not thinking of me back...funny right?

    11 years ago
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  • As the wind blows no one knows, no one knows how her guilt grows, how her guilt grows no one knows, for she kills her pain with the thorns
    of a rose.

    13 years ago
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