I just got out of a psychiatric ward becuz i took an o.d and this is how i felt when i was in there...
Trapped inside this jail
Cuts upon my wrist
Thoughts of only sadness
And all the fun I've missed
Blood dripping out everywhere
As a tear runs down my face
I can't deal with this anymore
I have to get out of this place
All the thoughts of everything
Are causing me so much pain
All this lack of freedom
Is driving me insane
I feel so hurt and broken
It is for sure this heart break
All this pain I suffer
Is because of that one huge mistake
The day I screwed up big time
More than I had before
I truly screwed up that time
I couldn't have any more
I screwed up my perfect life
I f u c k e d up Brittney and i
She broke up with me
And left, were only my thoughts to die
And that is why I'm here
That's what caused this f u c k e d up mess
That over dose didn't solve anything
Now that I can confess
I thought that it would kill me
I thought it would be the end
But no. it brought pain and suffering
Beyond people to comprehend
It put me in this place
Full of rules, boundaries and safety
This lack of freedom jail
Which makes me more unhappy
All the needles, diagnosis and the truth
Are getting way too much
There are so many things now
That I am unable to touch
I am only thirteen
And am going through all of this
Heart break, death and misery
With cuts all down my wrist
Everything is so overwhelming
It's getting out of hand
I'm feeling so many emotions
Like nobody can understand
The pain I feel is unimaginable
Its tearing me apart
It feels as if 1000 blades
Are stabbing at my heart
The way you feel during heartbreak
Is too hard to explain
So much confusion and emotion
So much extraordinary pain
Maybe heartbreak is the cause
Maybe that's why I'm depressed
Maybe mums death too
You know and all the rest
I feel so cold and broken
So empty inside
If only my mother was here
If only she hadn't died
If I could scream and yell, I would
With the loudest tone
But it wouldn't matter; no one would stop to help
I am so alone
My whole world is full of darkness
I cannot see a thing
Everything around me is a blur
I don't know where I am going
Everything is getting to me
It's building up inside
I just want to scream and let it out, but no
My voice is trapped, and can't escape no matter how many times I try
I am trapped inside this jail
I am suffocating in here
I'm away from everyone I love
I think of how much I miss them and shed another tear
I am so f u c k i n g angry
I am just so pissed
I want to get the f u c k out of here, but cant
So I take it out on my wrist
I am so f u c k i n g confused
I'm f u c k e d up in the head
I don't know if my life in worth living
Or if id be better off dead
I don't know what to do
I don't know where to go
I don't know who I am
I simply just don't know
As I said I have so many emotions
Running through my head
I could have been out of here
But no. I wish I hadn't of fled
Because running didn't solve anything
It just made things so much worse
And got more f u c k e d up
When my bipolar started to immerse
My time here is determined
They said I need 3 months
I hate them so much
The f u c k i n g dumb c u n t s
They started me on all this medication
Up to 12 tablets a day
I'm never going to adjust to this
I just cannot live this way
I then made another huge mistake
One of the worst I've ever made
I told Brittney I wanted her out of my life
And she got upset and obeyed
I not only lost her as my girlfriend
I've lost her friendship too
I've lost her altogether
I don't know what to do
So I turned to the glass
And did it once more
But this time it was worse
There was blood all over the floor
It's become an addiction
I am f u c k i n g addicted again
I can't stop, I'm so upset
I've lost Brittney as a friend
Things keep going worse
My behavior is really bad
I scream and shout and make a scene
Whenever I'm angry or sad
