If only I can be loved, if only I can be held..if only one kiss helps..then help.
I wake up everyday..feeling the same..like i want to be killed, or suicidal helps...
yeah i used to self harm..but nothing works no more.
i wish i could go back in time..so i could warn a person there about to die.
and say " dad dad its me Natalie..Ive come to tell you..that you will die November 19th 1999 so please dad..take fought"
but what if i could go back? and say that? would he listen? or drink his beer and laugh?
I'm so sick of singing his song inside my head..i wish i was dead..why did it have to be him? why not me
i cry myself to sleep at night..because it scares me..that i forgot the look of my dad..
yeah yeah they called me daddy's girl..and i came out worse!..my sister and brother would sit quiet..and i would cry my eyes out
that the person i loved, and would hopefully be there for my dad died..
they didn't care.. i was the only one that didn't know
my mum didn't care..she was having affair!
i didn't no..so life's a lie..why should i live.. i tried so many times..to not cry myself to sleep
and now i know..ever thing that happens..it shows..i don't care no more but i still wish he could sit at my front door and look over me
wishing the bets for me..because daddy i still love you and i don't care whats going to happen to me when I'm 38 like you was..i wish life could be simple and easy
but life ain't
..
and heres it is where i end..
i cry myself to sleep at night...
like i love the dark sky with the stars shining and again i got lied to
so
what do i do?
hang myself? or keep waiting for more? find the truth out? look at a picture and say..no thats not my dad
and inside....I'm feelings shit
so here we go
lets find out the truth
cry myself to sleep at night..if only i could..i would be alright!
