I don't know what's happened

I don't whether it's just hit me
or what's going on in my head
but I've only just realized
that your actually dead

You didn't leave a warning
or any sort of clue
you left me all alone
you just left out of the blue

I miss you so much granddad
I cried my self to sleep again
I don't know if i can cope alone
It's just causing so much pain

It's been nearly a year now
a year since i last saw your face
its hard to remember you now
I'm scared your memory will be replaced

I can't believe your gone though
we all knew this day would finally come
but we still weren't expecting it
i can't believe your life is done

You left me to face this world on my own
to reach my dreams without you
i needed you go guide me through it
through everything goal i wanted to do

Now you won't see me grow up
you won't see me live and get old
but it's all your fault your gone
you should have listened when you were told

If only you'd stopped drinking
then maybe you would have lived longer
if you didn't have to have that drink
then your heart and body would have been stronger

I had to sit at school for an hour
listening to a women go on and on
about how its bad to drink
i sat there in silence thinking what you've done

I want to be angry with you granddad
but i can't be i love and miss you to much
I want to hate you granddad
but i never could i just miss your touch

the songs that always cheered me up
the secret sweet box that we all used to love
but we don't have that any more
not since you were sent up above

I don't whether it's just hit me
or what's going on in my head
but I've only just realized
that your actually dead