So many broken hearts

So Many Broken Hearts

I donâ??t know what to say about 9/11
All I know Is that all the people who died that day definitely went to heaven
I also know that I miss my dad
My name is Sarah Iâ??m six years old and my daddy died on September 11th
He used to always make me glad
My dad was a fire fighter and he went into work willingly for that was his day off at work
The first few weeks my mom stopped talking
She started to drink all kinds of beer
She even had trouble walking
Now I have know one to do my hair
The first few weeks I did not understand what was going on!
I kept asking people what was wrong
Every one brought my mom food
People were no longer being rude
Thatâ??s when my grandma told me daddy died
I sat in his closet the whole day and cried
I had so many questions to ask
Where did he go?
When is he coming back?
She said one word, heaven
He canâ??t come back sweetie he stays in the sky
Before that day I never really new the true real meaning of the word die
My mommy would cry late at night after she tucked me in
I felt that if I cried I would make daddy sad
I wouldnâ??t do anything bad because my daddy was watching and it would be a sin
Daddy I miss you
I wish I as up there with you laughing with you and holding you
But Iâ??m not
Hey dad, mommy is sad a lot
I wake up late at night when thereâ??s a monster under my bed
But your not there to scare it away
Remember you used to say that I was so brave
Well Iâ??m not because now that your gone I feel so scared
Now that your gone every thing is weird
We have this thing at preschool
Our daddy gets to come help us swim in the pool
But your not here and I need you in every possible way
I stay up real late and just pray
I want to say sorry if I was a bad girl
I never will be again if you answer my prayer, this one little wish
I wish you could come down here and me a great big hug and one last kiss!
Daddy the last words I said to you was I hate youâ?¦DONâ??T EVER COME BACK!!
I was mad because you were supposed to take me to the mall and get a new toy
When your phone rang your boss said it was an emergency there was a plain crash and a bombing
the twin towers had crashed you started to sweat you told him you would be right there
You and me were almost at the mall when you hit your brakes and started to swear
You wouldnâ??t answer my questions all you said was there was a fire
You turned around and headed home, pulled into our drive way opened my door and told me to get out
I said no and you gave a big shout
I ran to mom and started to pout
I want you to know I was just mad
I hope you didnâ??t leave me cause I was bad
Oh daddy just come back to me!!!!!
I canâ??t stand being sad
I need you to help me with every day life
and walk me down the aisle someday before I become someoneâ??s wife
Daddy if you can here me I want you to know how much I love you
And I will see you soon
hereâ??s a kiss and a hug
Iâ??ll never forget that I was you little love bug