Him

The yelling
the screaming
"make it stop"

I'm scared of him
he came into my room
(SMACK)
I always thought it was me

Bruises fade stepdad
but, the pain remains the same
What did I do to deserve this?

One foot in the air(being held)
then suddenly on my head
As I cried and cried
making me think i did wrong

You always called me
stupid or lazy
there were a ton of names
that made me so ashamed

never a 'HI'
always a nasty look
or a bitter face

suddenly lights are flashing
and your being taken away
soon to return back home

A few months quiet
I begged her not to take you back
and she did

My happiness ended
he killed it
my childhood ruined
always to be strong

I'm tired of dealing
and I cant save myself
I'm in too deep
I cant help myself out

There's too much inside
It's buried too deep
impossible to unleash

home is an uncomfortable place
i never wanna go back
my life ruined
I just cant get it back

I wish i could kill him
like he killed me
he made me feel worthless
I started to plea

Why didn't she just leave?
Why did he do this to me?
I don't understand it...