Secret of the Heart

He doesn't understand
my heart is locked up, protected by a wall
I can't let no one in
I can't make it fall

It was put there long ago
but not by me
my first true love
he is the one that holds the key

my soul is lifeless
It's easy to tell
I wish this would all just fade away
I need to bid him farewell

I may look like I care
It may look like it's love
Just because it's white
doesn't mean it's a dove

I can't lead him on
love is not what I feel
He deserves to know the truth
He needs to know it's not real

I can't love anymore
It's just something I can't do
I need to be strong
but my hearts breaking into

Why can't this just be over
Why can't it all end
All I need right now
is just a friend.