Sad and sick

I force myself sick,
im so sick of it,
all the pain thats been caused,
wish i could put it to a pause,

now im here throwing up,
your at, a party, throw it up.
ive just been dumped,
the music gets you pumped.

im scared to death
wasting my last breath,
thinking of you,
when theres so much to do.

you are a mountain,
and i am a seed.
and only you to be here,
can turn me into a tree.

my tears are the way,
for the prices i pay.
im hiding it all,
when theres so much to say

because all my screams
my heart is left sore,
but i did it to myself
its my heart that i tore

im left cold and defensless
left sick
for the fact
im a dck