I\'m happiest when....

I was happiest when the blade sliced through my skin
Revealing all my strengths, cleansing all my sins
When the rainclouds burst spreading rain upon the land
Dancing at midnight, pain carved into my hand

For you will never comprehend, the pleasure depression brings
The wonders of being dead as the mourners start to sinf
When I was watching the blood dripping away scarlet tears
As I stood upon my death staring out from southport pier

I was happiest when I died, happy all on my own
For when life in complicated, I am happy when alone
When the tears drip down my face, for once I truly smile
I love it when I\'m facing lifes oldest toughest trials

I sing the saddest love songs, Cry the deepest tears
Enjoy the worst problemd, Enjoy bittersweet fears
When all my life is failing, and everything is bad
Do you understand me from this? I\'m happy when I\'m sad